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2009-08-24T16:53:00.001+08:00

Change to new blog.

innocent-dimwit.blogspot.com

Fk every single thing.

2009-08-23T11:10:00.003+08:00

Thanks alot ah! Ha. Now your turn for revenge? Thanks alot. I've healed my heart half way through and you scattered it all again. Thanks alot.

And to this particular one: Think first la horh. Dont say he backstab you or what. I know him better than you do. Is you backstab him la horh. Knn. You want jiu backstab me la. Why the hell go and backstab him? Cb. Get a life la.

Baby come back to me.

2009-08-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

Why do I miss you so much?

I wanna stop this hurt inside

Oh baby please, give us one more try

I see you out with all your friends

Laughin' it up as you pretend

To have a good time

I know cause I'm living the same lie

So one of us has got to say

We can't keep living the same way

So I'll be the one

Yeah I'll say it, I'll say it, I'll say it, I'll say it again

Baby Come back to me

In my heart I still believe

We were meant to be...

Together so whatever it takes

Baby come back to me

I should have never set you free

My baby

Come back

I wanna call, but then I stall

Cause after all, I just couldn't take it

Cause if your play was to push me away

You know that day

My heart you'd break it

I know we made a mistake

Can't you stop your foolish pride

And come back to me

Let's try, Let's try, Let's try, Let's try it again

Baby Come back to me

You know you miss your baby

And I can see that you think about me

So why do you act like you don't care

Like all this love between us isn't there

I know that you're upset

I know I did you wrong

I know you want me to pay for all the pain I've caused

But in the end it all comes down to just one thing

It's you and me

So I sing

Baby Come Back!

Together so whatever it takes

Baby come back to me

Come back

Baby Come Back!

Still the same.

2009-08-22T22:46:00.004+08:00

Day out with krystal. Had fun. But feel stress when i'm alone. Sigh. I really dont know how to get you back. Dont reject everything. Sigh. Tmr is my training. How? I dont have the feel alrdy. Sigh. Hope that he wont go there tmr. Sigh. I'm sure he'll hate me more. Ha. Love krystal. Gonna celebrate her birthday with her! :D

To this particular one: Get a life man.

And last but not least, I love kai alot. Even if...... Ha.

Sigh.

2009-08-22T00:02:00.003+08:00

I want to be your stupid. I will help you feel free of stress. I will help you no matter how tired i am. I want to be your stubborn. I will not eat. Unless you come back to me. Rmb i threaten you with this before? Ha. I want you to laugh at me and with me. Sigh. I miss you badly.

There're definitely alot more guys out there. But why do i choose to stop here, wait and make myself so sad instead of moving on and make myself happy? Becuz i know my mistakes, i know i love you alot, i know i can really treasure you for the last time. I only need a chance. Ha. I know you gave me alot of chance alrdy. But, this time, i'm not gonna hurt you anymore. Seeing you hurt makes me hurt too. Ha. Nvm, i'm just expressing my feeling, i dont think you'll come and see. :) Good luck for your exam tmr. (L) Dont worry abt the money. I will help. (L)

2009-08-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

我很想你，你知道吗？我很累了。你可以回来我身边吗？我真的要倒下去了。已经很多天没看见你了。你可以回来我身边了吗？你可以不要那么痛吗？我的心真得很痛。我求老天爷，快点把我的凯翔还给我。

Love you as much still.

2009-08-20T18:46:00.004+08:00

I wonder if you'll come to our blog and view. I wonder if you think of me. I wonder if you can feel my heart. I love you, hang on there. I will help you till the end, no matter what, even if you dont want me to. I will still help. Cuz i love you alot, i dont want to see you in pain. :) Love you, my 蛋。现在，我想做你的笨。我要你做蛋。这样我们就可以在一起了。:) 我很想跟你说我很想你。可是我不能。我不可以把全部都搞砸。我会慢慢等你的。我很爱你，宝贝。

I torlong torlong god, give me one last chance to show my baby that i will treat him well, i have changed. I love him alot. I really torlong you. Sigh. I miss you alot, baby. Alot alot. I really hope that you can hear me crying every night. Sigh. Come back to me as soon as possible, i need you badly. Sigh. Very soon, i cannot be happy alrdy. I force myself to eat. I numb myself by laughing. I dont want any of your to worry. But, very soon, i cmi le. Sigh.

Manissa, Ishu, have faith and trust. Thanks alot for hearing me crazy all the things out. :) I dont know what am i doing. Sigh. Everything is going wrong! Tmr got a maths test! I flip and put it aside. How! Come back to me!!! :'(

一天了。我还可以tahan下去吗？

2009-08-19T20:36:00.004+08:00

I think i am not immature. :) I know what to do when i meet probs. I dont create trouble from monday onwards. (although it was only 2 days) but i will continue to change my bad character to the best! To the girl you want. :) I trust you alot, i swear. Slowly, you will see my change. I will be the innocent girl that you met 8 months ago. :) I will wait, no matter what. Becuz no matter how busy i am, you'll still appear in my mind. I know you trust me too. I wont talk to any guys. :) Dont worry. Faster settle your things and come back to me. :) I love you alot, my short fringe + short-of-orange baby. (L)(L)(L) Will wait, no matter what. :)

Btw, i want shaker fries too, kelly. You give joy, nvr give me. -,-

I need you.

2009-08-18T16:22:00.005+08:00

I need your sweet sweet sugar. I'll wait. I swear i will. My character brings me down to hell.
I am ridiculous, i am immature, i am lame, i am irritating, i am petty, i treated him badly. I need to change all these.
Shld i think positively to make myself happy that __________?
Or shld i think negatively and let time heals till __________?
If i think positively, and it turns out negative, i think i'll go worse than now.
But if i think negatively, i think everyone will give up on me and i will nvr be positive.
Ha. Idk how. I'm afraid of everything now. I'm afraid of my phone, facebook, her blog.
I'm very afraid. I'm really vex. I need a job badly.
I know there're many friends just by my side.
It's just that, i'm afraid of all the scoldings, i'm afraid to cry in front of all of you.
Danying, i'm sorry.
Kelly, joy, jieyi, shien, tabs, jie(kh), regina, ahdi, sorry to make your worry.
K & N, i'm sorry, i'm really sorry. I didnt mean it. And i dont want this to happen. Sigh.
I ruin everything. I'm a coward now, i'm running away.
It's fate that brought us tgt. It's fate that you choose me instead of her. It's fate...
But i dont think it's fate that __________. It's becuz of my character. I know that god can hear me asking for help. But i'm not sure if god will help me __________. I really __________. I swear i will __________. I will treat him well, i swear with my blood.

Sigh

2009-08-17T16:07:00.000+08:00

Sorry to make your worry. I'm sorry. Thanks alot for being there for me. I'm really sorry.

Mia.

我是一条没有用的狗。

2009-08-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

没有你在我有多难熬。离开我以后，我没有很好。我真的很想要再次珍惜你。你能给我最后一个机会吗？我知道我对你不好。你的朋友骂我骂的很好。我是一条狗。没有人要的狗。我真的很想珍惜你。我看到他们吵架的时候，我哭了。我才知道你对我有多好。我真的很想在珍惜你。我会等你。我永远都不会嫁人了。我只要嫁给你一个。你从来不打我。你每次给我机会。我却没珍惜。我真的知道错了。我真的真的很想在珍惜你。我不管你朋友说什么。我只要你回来我身边。等你拿到执照后，你会回来我身边吗？你会在爱我吗？你会给我最后一个机会吗？我很想你。真的很想。我对不起你。我不会珍惜你，是我的损失。我真的很想在珍惜你。我希望你会回来我身边。我会等你。我爱你，陈凯翔。

2009-08-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

Mia. Vomit, cry, bang the wall and all. Sigh.

Getting worse.

2009-08-14T18:33:00.000+08:00

Thanks jieyi, tabs, kelly, regina, krystal. Have not eaten anything since ytd afternoon? Ha. It doesn't matter. Cuz he don't even care. :) Mia, bye.

2009-08-13T20:24:00.003+08:00

I think i'm getting cra-zier and cra-zier each day. Couldn't study chem at all. Shall go out for a walk ltr, come back then study. Everything's gone. My mood, i cant get it back to track. Idk what the fuck is wrong with me. Sigh, just making things worse. Anyway, i'm not going to use my phone alrdy. Anything just leave a tag here, or leave a note on my desk. Sigh. Everything's getting worse. I dont want you to get a new girl. I dont want to see you and her hand in hand walking pass me. That will be really damn fucking hurt. I did not change. Really did not. Sigh. I think i am going...... I'm just so fucking sad. Came across someone's blog and saw smth. Ha! I think you're closer to her than me! Ha! Thanks alot for making me cry again. I promise not to comment anything. But this is really fucking painful! AHHHHHHHHHHHH! IDK LA! SO FUCKING STRESS AND PAIN CAN! GRRRRRRRRRRRR!

SIgh

2009-08-12T20:37:00.002+08:00

11pm to 4am is the best time. Becuz i am going out for a long walk. :) If you care, tell me straight in my face. Becuz my death date is nearing as each day passes. One meal a day, you like? 2hrs of sleep a day, you like? Many hours of hiding and crying, you like? Ha. I dont like. But what to do? It hurts.

I am not in the right state.

2009-08-12T11:45:00.001+08:00

I forgot everything that i studied last night. Only you appeared in my mind. I can only think of you. Sigh. Brought the wrong physics notebook, forgot to bring new notebook for a maths, forgot to do bio, stayed in class alone during recess. Cried out. Didnt know that shien was behind me. Sorry. Thanks my 6 girls, kiamin, claudia, ahdi, ... Sigh. Got no strength alrdy. Feel so weak now. Need to study for chem. Sigh.

2009-08-10T18:53:00.002+08:00

Fuck life. Giving up soon. Bye, bitch.

Nightmares.

2009-08-09T11:43:00.000+08:00

Today, pubors! :) I think that the next time i'm going to see him is next saturday or sunday? Or maybe not. No dinner week. :)

Need time.

2009-08-07T20:43:00.003+08:00

I had great fun with my girls! (L) I miss pubors. :( Sunday!!! Hehe.

Bak kut teh, iTouch, mrt, shuttle bus, kites, shaker fries, coke, guitar, grass, camera, jump, tired, sleepy, laughs, ... Hahaha! I like!!! More outings soon! (L) After common test, i'm going to learn guitar from dan dan. The 7 of us can have a band: guitars and songs. Muahahahaha. The ball ball that dan dan gave us, represent the 7 of us! (L)

Vivo, marche, kbox, screaming & steamboat, birthday cake coming soon. :) Pubors.

Night time = night mare.

2009-08-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

Thanks alot for not replying my msg ah! Ha.

No dinner today.

2009-08-05T16:46:00.004+08:00

From eilly's blog.
For no reason why, girls are always the one feeling bothered over smth that happened. It's always the girls who start thinking why all these happen and feel remorseful over what's over and done with. Somehow, most of the boys will conclude that we're just being paranoid for thinking these much, we're over-reacting over smth small. But smth that they will nvr und is, girls tend to put in much more emotions than what you can imagine. It's just like why we can nvr und guy's egoism.

I agree with that. It's just girls' mind. Not that we're immature, it's just our minds are made like that. Sigh. And i think i'm going crazy. Doing things without thinking. I just cane my hand with the clothes hanger becuz i'm feeling very bad in heart. But luckily the marks are gone and i'm feeling 10% better. :)

P.S. To those JS monsters, dont always eat auntie's food. Cuz i think eilly very angry alrdy. Auntie's just like our mother leh. How can.

:)

2009-08-04T18:43:00.000+08:00

I'm still on my way to grow. My love for you is still growing too. Hehe. Love you more and more each day. Your msg, calls and everything make my day. (L)

I hope i'm doing fine.

2009-08-04T16:14:00.000+08:00

Perhaps you didnt see my previous post. Nvm. :) Had a new mor-dam (dk how to spell). Internet is back! :D Hmmmm, shld i eat dinner today? I'm so lazy and of cuz, no mood. I think i shall skip my dinner today. If not, i no money alrdy. And shld i go with the girls on sunday? Steamboat clash. :( Sigh. I think i'm going with the pubors since jieyi and tab not going. Hmmmm, and maybe boyf will come my hse for steamboat? If he come for steamboat, I'll not go for fireworks. :)

Cant do without you.

2009-08-03T17:00:00.004+08:00

I can say that i'm very useless now. Rice for recess, didnt finish, want to vomit. Maggie for dinner, didnt finish, want to vomit. Wanted to study but really feeling bad. Headache + want to vomit. I dont want to fall sick. Sigh. Life sucks, i sucks. Gastric? It doesnt matter alrdy.

I wonder, did i yawn till cry or sad till cry? Today i was blasting all the songs into my ears, those songs that you sang in front of me before. Your cute face kept appearing in my mind. Perhaps i was crying. Becuz i miss you. Perhaps ppl are laughing at me for causing myself into this big trouble.

Jealousy kills. I get 100% jealous everytime a girl talks to you or you talk to a girl although there was no other 目的. But i still feel jealous. Is it becuz i love you too much? Sigh. I love you, my short fringe baby. Take care.

Useless me.

2009-08-02T15:54:00.003+08:00

Got no mood/appetite to eat alrdy. And i guess flu is getting worse after crying? Sorry. I am useless.

Happy yet sad.

2009-08-02T15:14:00.002+08:00

I shall start studying tmr. I'm really very tired. Sleepless nights are killing me. Fireworks with babala, dan dan and shien. ;D I miss screaming and laughing at the pubor clique. (L)

Things not done:
~return phone
~put my bio wb into my bag
~get number from baobei

Attention!!!

2009-08-01T12:04:00.000+08:00

People, my phone is repaired but all my contacts are gone. Pls sms me to tell me your number. :) Thanks. And i think my flu is getting better. :)

2009-07-31T13:45:00.000+08:00

Irresponsible.

Hehe.

2009-07-30T21:25:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! Jie lend me her old phone. Haha. Her old phone is like, so new! Haha. :) Thanks alot! You save my life man! (L) I think i'm having flu too. Hopefully it'll heal up tmr. :) Nura. :(

Pls pls pls.:(

2009-07-30T16:49:00.002+08:00

MY PHONE JUST SPOILED. I think my phone kena h1n1. Zzz. Everyone pls get welll sooon! And anyone can acc me to jp ltr?

Pls.

2009-07-30T16:03:00.002+08:00

Nura, pls get well soon. :( Joy is down, tabs is down, nisa is down, ahdi is down. :(

I'm fine, hopefully.

2009-07-29T20:33:00.002+08:00

Had a great day. And i want to play water with jieyi again! Hahaha. So fun. Training so relax today. Muahahaha! But i think i falling sick alrdy. Keep coughing. :( I dont want to get sick. I still want to meet baby de. If sick, i cant hug and kiss baby. :(

Get well soon.

2009-07-28T14:56:00.003+08:00

Auntie, get well soon aite! So that you can go out with us on saturday! :)

More and more ppl getting sick.

Aini didnt come school today. :( Luckily is a short day. If not i will die.

Tmr going omni threatre! COOL! :D

Hopefully she's not absent again! :) Get well soon!

Btw, i want to go kbox again! Wanna scream again! Haha. :D

Had a maths test finally. Hopefully i can get full marks again. :)

Bad day.

2009-07-27T15:07:00.002+08:00

MY GEOGRAPHY TEST! ZZZ. Sure flunk alrdy. :( Zzzzzzz. I miss baby alot. :( Today keep banging onto things, injuries. Zzz. First, my knee hit the table. Then my elbow hit the chair. Wah piang.

:)

2009-07-27T11:41:00.002+08:00

Baby. (L)

More things are happening.

2009-07-26T20:58:00.002+08:00

My eyes are swollen and painful. Luckily you didnt meet me just now.

:(

2009-07-26T15:28:00.001+08:00

What if i'm gone the next day? Would you cry? Tears are flowing out soon.

Now you feel it?

2009-07-26T00:34:00.002+08:00

Back from kbox. Had fun screaming with the girls! (L) Haha. Now baby knows how i feel? When you go out with your friends, i worried for you so much. And i felt so lonely. Cuz you're busy with your friends. At least when you reach home, i got the time to talk to you. :) Whatever~ Hope to see you tmr. Nights.

You don't know.

2009-07-25T11:41:00.003+08:00

I cried to sleep last night and woke up with a black face. I've decided to go kbox with them! :) Unless someone come and stop me. :)

Someone decide for me pls.

2009-07-24T23:56:00.003+08:00

Sigh. I still cannot decide. Shld i go kbox with them tmr? They're fun! They always do funny things! How how? $15 will be gone leh. :( Shld i stay at home and study? Idk. I think i shall lazy on my bed tmr. Cry to sleep tonight. Nights. Sorry.

I know.

2009-07-24T23:52:00.003+08:00

I know all these. I really wanted to send you home. Even if i'm afraid of going home alone after sending you home. I can have one more hug/kiss and i can look at you for one more min. One min to me is a lot alrdy. Sorry for being so weak and make you worry. Sorry.

Disgusting.

2009-07-24T16:24:00.002+08:00

Girls scold vulgar = guys digging their noses.

So, i dont scold vulgar.

He sure say this: "Really meh?" Zzz.

I'm a gentle girl. Right joy?

Hahahahaha. Whateverrrrrr. So bored. Zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

You've changed

2009-07-24T14:03:00.005+08:00

Last time you're not like that. No matter how gay the phone keychain is, you'll still hang it on your phone. I gave you a little miss sunshine and you insist of not hanging it. You dont know how sad i am. I am sad. Very very sad.

I want a mr happy. Someone buy for me to cheer me up.

And i want this denim shorts below.

It's only $20. :)

If.

2009-07-24T13:58:00.002+08:00

If you're not afraid of losing me, continue to keep things from me, continue to keep forgetting abt me. I'm not as strong as you thought.

TODAY is thursday.

2009-07-23T17:31:00.004+08:00

Today, we continued talking abt the scary thing. During lunch, i heard smth more scary. After lunch, i heard smth even more scary. Zzz. Our school is haunted. :( Whatever. I got my baby to protect me, although it's not 24/7. But nvm. I got other ppl to protect me. :) No a maths test tmr. That is so cool~ Tmr~~~ I want to go breakfast with you. Zzz. Shall not continue if not smth might happen again. :) Chill~

Totally no mood to study today. I'm waiting for your call. Where are you now? Is there smth bad that idk? Zzz. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I love baby. (L)

2009-07-22T19:28:00.002+08:00

10% eclipse today.

Omni postpone to next wednesday.

RHD this friday. I'm wearing qi pao. And we're going to take photos! :)

New coach for 1 year ++. Shiok! She's nice! :)

Scary stuffs during training. Scare me out of my live. :( I'm too scared to study now. :(

Baby still eating. :( I love his sexy voice. Simply so sexy! (L)

I want to buy many things. :(

.

2009-07-21T17:01:00.001+08:00

Sorry.

I miss my dear boy.

2009-07-20T15:40:00.003+08:00

Today dad kena a fine. Again. -,-

Still not sure how much is it. Sigh.

Today can't see my dear boy.

Can only hear his sexy voice when he's home. :(

Today we get back our a maths test. I got full marks. Haha.

Baby shld be very very proud of me right? Haha.

Feeling giddy and sleepy. But still cant sleep. Have to study. EOY coming. Sigh.

Baby also need to study. For the sake of his bike. Haha. So cute! (L)

I love baby. (L)

2009-07-19T01:17:00.002+08:00

Today last min went vivo with ahdi, kiahui, sandy, sihui, peiqin, shiyun, and somemore. All of them so funny. So fun. Kh said if want, next year i can request my bday celebration. And they can celebrate foe me. :) Hehe. Just now got couple couple, so jealous cuz baby not with me. Sigh. Phone no $$ somemore. Sigh. :(

Hopefully: 1) Tmr can meet.
2) All of them are dead. Then you can meet me and go everywhere with me. :) Hehe.
3) You're free on 5th sep.
4) You can pass your license.
5) We will last forever. Things are going very very well between us just that smth
else is disturbing you. Zzz. Hate them la! :( I want time to go fast fast.
6)i can win her in my results. I want to get A for both maths, C for chem and bio, B for the rest. :) Although it's hard, but i will try my best. I MUST WIN HER.

The end.

I am a happy girl

becuz i know you love me a lot

& will not leave me. :)

I love you too, baby. (L)

2009-07-17T14:24:00.002+08:00

I think you need to think abt yourself before badmouthing ppl straight into their face. Ha. STFU if you dont want to think then. Grrrrrrrr. Friend? Friends dont say that. Friends encourage. I am sure that i can win you in my academic results. :) Just watch and see. Ha.

Btw, baby's lesson ends at 5pm and test till 8pm. Idk whether he allows me to fetch him and bus home with him anot. Hehe. I want to play with you, baby. Hurry contact me k? I'm waiting. And sry abt the 4 letters.
I love you. (L)

Love

2009-07-16T15:31:00.000+08:00

Happy 7th monthsary baby. (L) you always.

2009-07-15T19:40:00.003+08:00

I want a kitten. I want tattoo like k&n. I want to see you. I want you to reward me. I want to eat with you. I want to hold your hand. I want to hug you. I want to tickle you. I want to..... :(

2009-07-10T18:19:00.003+08:00

I'm not good at all. I'm useless. Very useless. Am i still the same? I've changed. I nvr talk to **** unless they talk to me. Even if they did, i ignored them. Sigh. I just wanna celebrate your birthday with you cuz i thought they'll celebrate yours and your friend's birthday tgt. Sigh. Perhaps i'm really not a good gf. I'm simply an useless b****.

Batteries...

2009-07-09T19:54:00.003+08:00

I need 2 of these: Alkaline GPA76 15X. (Batteries)

Any kind soul get it for me? :(

Today, i wondered. Am i spoiling the fs between you 2?

Shld i leave you? I really dk.

Someone pls give me advice.

(Not abt baby. Dont worry. I wont leave you.)

Sigh.

There's chem test tmr. I forgot abt it and didnt bring my TB home to study.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. I am clumsy.

Monday - Physics Test

Next week idk which day - A & E maths tests.

Baby's so cuteeeeeeeeeeee! (L) Secret!!! Hehehe.

LOVE YOU!!!

2009-07-08T18:32:00.005+08:00

Got rock climbing cannot meet.

No rock climbing also cannot meet. Zzz.

Perhaps you want more freedom. Ha. Give you alot alot!

No dinner tonight. Just so (insert word)... Sigh...

Not fair at all. You go out to play pool while i have to stay at home and rot.

Both krystal and crystal can see you but i cant! :(

And you can see krystal. :( I want to see her too. :(

Not fair, baby! Not fair!

Okay, stop all that bitchy behavior.

I dont like the chinese trainee teacher and i hate the bio trainee teacher. Ha!

I just hate school. Rock climbing cancelled, was so happy cuz i thought that i can see baby!

But he ask me to stay at home. Nvm, tahan.

Maggie kena "stolen" by ppl. Zzz. Nvm, tahan.

Mr m asks for graph papers. Forgot to bring! Damn angry. Cannot tahan alrdy.

Sorry to those that i've attituded, especially aini and baby. Zzz.

I am not a good friend/girlf.

8 more days to 7th monthsary. :)

68 more days to baby's birthday. (L)

I've planned how to celebrate alrdy. Hehehe.

Hopefully no one will snatch him away from me!!!

I will definitely kill that person!!!

Roar!

Racial harmony on 24th july. Anyone with ethnic costume? Lend me. :)

National day celebration on 7th august. Another no-lesson-day. SHIOK!

2009-07-08T17:16:00.001+08:00

I hate all these nightmares and worryings. Someone kill it for me. I want baby to kill it for me.:(

2009-07-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

Maybe we shldnt meet tmr. I'll be a burden to you. So, see you soon. Love you, my dear boy. Have fun.

2009-07-06T20:26:00.002+08:00

Cut nails
See baby's rc
Find printer
Rock climbing on wed
Save money for 7th monthsary (L)

Baby, good luck for your prac! I really hope you can pass. Must jiayou okay? Support you always! I'm your biggest fan. :)

2009-07-04T21:26:00.002+08:00

I agreed i was abit drunk just now. But after that, i'm fine! Haha. :)
Thanks to all of my friends who're there for me. :)
I love you, boy. I'll nvr let you go now. Promise not to drink again, talk to **** again, etc. Very sleepy. Hurry bath.

2009-07-04T14:17:00.001+08:00

Happy 9th month to K&N. :)
Hmm, everything's alright now, i suppose. Just wanna feel relaxed and let out a scream. -,-
I am hungry. I am waiting for him to be back to jurong. :)
Thanks everyone who're there for me. :)

2009-07-03T14:15:00.007+08:00

Becuz of me, you lost a bestfriend. Sorry. Dont scold him alrdy aite? Is all my fault. Not his. Scold me ba. Perhaps i'm still not awake. Today, i had no mood to do the functional writing. Hence, i just write 2 short paragraphs and hand in. Which is not even a page. Forget it. Get scoldings from Mrs H only. Doesnt matter. I seriously need printer. Pls contact me if you have a printer with coloured ink. I really need it before tuesday. Are things getting better? I hope so. My appetite become worse. Drank the soup and a few "strands" of noodle and i threw it away. Haix. Got no mood to eat. Cried to sleep last night. Eyes are abit swollen. But doesnt matter alrdy. I cant upload babala's photo. Today they're kinda cold to me. But its okay. As long as you guys are by my side, pei-ing me silently. I love you guys.

Mummy, i'm worried abt you too. After hearing that bad news. I'll be there for you always. You'll get well alright? I will save money for you. Dont worry. I love you always.
Daddy, idk why are you worried but dont worry. I'm alright. Nth much happen. I'll study hard and make you guys proud. I love you two.

I miss you alot, boy. Love you.

Edited:
When i need you now, where're you?

2009-07-02T20:49:00.001+08:00

Anyone got working printer with coloured ink? Pls contact me.

2009-07-02T20:31:00.003+08:00

Sorry tabs. Dont ask me what i do. Perhaps you knew it alrdy. Or maybe not. Idk. These few days i'm ******* stress and sad. So i didnt think so much and those things just leak out from my mouth. I'm sorry. Babala, i dont want the same thing to happen to us. Pls forgive me if i've done smth wrong. I'm really very vex with what i'm at now. Sorry.

Sorry, baby. I'm useless.

2009-07-02T16:58:00.002+08:00

I am useless. I'm not a good friend. Not a good girlf. Sorry for letting you guys down.
Boy, i still love you as much.

2009-07-01T20:27:00.000+08:00

I'm lost, no one to my rescue. Where's my super boyf? I miss you.

2009-07-01T17:49:00.002+08:00

Glad that you're still the same old you, no emo, no sad, no stress. :) Perhaps you're happier without me irritating you? Or happy that a girl cries for you every single night? Whatever it is, i'm very hurt by myself. I miss you badly. No one knows how much i miss you.

2009-06-30T20:02:00.001+08:00

"Where there is great love, there are always miracle." Is it true?

Pls stop my cryings.

2009-06-30T18:39:00.003+08:00

Comment on his posts all your want!
I really hope that baby is ugly! Why are you so handsome and attractive till all your friends wanna talk to you?! Zzz! Hate it la!
I am not an ah lian. I dont stare at ppl. I'm really left with a bit of flesh now. Very soon i'll be left with bones. Pls dont ignore me alrdy. I want to joke with my friends, laugh with you, go out with you again. I hate all these. I nvr talk to guys alrdy. Is they talk to me de. I dont want to tell you is becuz i dont want you to fight, get into trouble and all! Pls, help me in this small favour. I'm going to post everything in here. Not going to use phone. Anything you want to say, text me. I will look at it some day. Ty.

2009-06-30T14:45:00.001+08:00

I think i'm really collapsing soon. My immune system is dying. Dont know why these few days feeling quite cold, keep sneezing.

2009-06-29T19:17:00.000+08:00

This is worse than having me in the prison. I'm bleeding in pain. So sad. So vex. I miss you. Sorry.

2009-06-29T16:20:00.003+08:00

Very soon, i'll not be able to smile and hide my sadness. Do you think he'll care now? He didnt talk to me for, 4-5 days alrdy. He didnt ask me to eat alrdy. Tabs and Jy said that i'm getting skinner. Ha. I'm falling from the top of happiness to the bottom for sadness. Very soon i'll collapse. I am very sad and stress.

2009-06-28T18:51:00.001+08:00

It hurts. I dont see a need to blog alrdy. Mia. Bye.

2009-06-28T14:20:00.002+08:00

I'm also a human, i have feelings. I'll feel sad, stress, vex. I'll want to end my life too. I cried, i throw things arnd, venting my stress. Trying to end my life after those msgs. I'm jealous of krystal. Ha. I'm jealous of krystal and navin. Trust and over-loving between them make them tgt after every quarrel. Without her getting hurt as much as me. You're hurt too. You cant forgive me this time. You didnt contact me for 2 days alrdy. I'm even more stress and sad. I'm crying while typing all these shit. Bye.

2009-06-28T00:55:00.002+08:00

No matter what, i've nvr felt that you're useless or ugly. I'm the one who's useless and ugly. I'm not a good gf. Maybe i shall really be gone for good.

2009-06-27T17:27:00.001+08:00

I shall be: gone for good. Bye everybody.

2009-06-27T01:37:00.001+08:00

As long as you're happy.:)

2009-06-26T23:27:00.001+08:00

Experience is gain every quarrel. Phew~

RIP

Michael jackson

1958~2009

2009-06-26T16:18:00.000+08:00

I'm not turning to an ah lian. I nvr stare at ppl. Nvr. I swear. Its okay if you dont believe me. I'm not doing stunts. Tc.

2009-06-21T21:57:00.001+08:00

Kelly hsu, you must take care of yourself during camp okay. Bored can sms me.:) (L)(L)(L)

2009-06-21T16:39:00.000+08:00

I miss you.

2009-06-21T05:07:00.001+08:00

All becuz i love you alot. Really alot.

2009-06-21T01:00:00.001+08:00

You need freedom. I shall give you alot alot alot of freedom.:) I must not control you alrdy.

2009-06-19T22:26:00.000+08:00

I LOVE CKX BABY!:D

2009-06-18T22:17:00.007+08:00

Hmm, today went to meet albee and her sister (cousins) at bugis and went to catch Ghosts of Girlfs Past. Not bad la. Just that the seat very torturing. -,- And very cold, baby not with me. :( They treat me also! Aftermaths head to jp to meet annie (biggest cousin in the whole family), her husband and celine(cousin) for dinner at Crystal Jade. :) They treat also! Haha. But didnt eat much. Then went to walk arnd there. Celine bought me a dress! :D Haha. Tmr going bugis again. I'm very happy. Cuz maybe i can meet baby! Although it's not confirm yet, but at least there's a 50/50% that he can come out. :) Hehe. I miss baby! I also love him!!! :D

2009-06-18T14:51:00.000+08:00

I miss baby alot.:( Surely ltr i'll feel moody and weird without baby.

2009-06-18T02:50:00.002+08:00

Felt great after talking to KIAHUI JIE abt 大道理! LOL! And navin abt kx. :)

2009-06-18T01:56:00.000+08:00

I think it's my right wrist's turn to be injured. :(

2009-06-18T01:04:00.000+08:00

I shall pay you back by helping you play ba. Sorry.

2009-06-17T23:39:00.001+08:00

Sorry.

2009-06-17T23:13:00.003+08:00

I changed the position and used his money to buy chairs and tables. I didnt know he need the money. I didnt ask him in the first place. And i didnt tell him abt it aftermaths. He scolded meeeeeeeeeee. I can only blame myself. I wanted to pay him back. But he said its ok. Why am i like that?!!!!!!! Why didnt i ask him?! Why didnt i tell him?! Why am i so busybody?! Why?! ZZZ!!! Really hate myself laaaaaaaaaaaa! Can one car just bang me off the road and make me lose my memory?!!! Or put me into coma?!!! ZZZ! So angry with myself!!! Someone!!! Pls slap me!!!

2009-06-17T22:42:00.000+08:00

Imma wash my hair twice a day.

2009-06-17T16:17:00.001+08:00

Gimme a :), baby.

2009-06-16T18:22:00.000+08:00

Happy 6th monthsary. ♥

2009-06-15T13:50:00.001+08:00

I bet you forget that tmr's our 6th monthsary ba.

2009-06-15T13:45:00.000+08:00

You said that all i said was nonsense. I'm not saying nonsense. Swear all i want? I swear ltr if i walk on road, a car bang me, if you nvr tell me that before.

2009-06-14T14:09:00.002+08:00

Those painful words hurt me. At abc, i feed you with rojak, you said "tsk, bu yao wan." And you push my hand away. Everyone laughed at me. At bl, you need to go home alrdy. But you stopped in front of the cd shop and watched the show. I pulled you away, you said "tsk zuo mo." You're starting to get sick of me alrdy. When you're with youre friends, you'll left me out. Behind, alone walking. Then you found out that i'm not by your side then you'll look for me. Ha. I dont dare to tell you becuz you'll say sorry. I dont want you to say sorry. Cuz in the end, smth worse will happen. Its always like that. I dreamt abt you last night. You... With girls. Idk what to do alrdy. I no longer have got the mood to do things. Sometimes, i will just stare in the air and think abt you even when you're with me. I really... Haix. Pls pretend that you nvr see these and dont talk to me abt these. I just want you to change silently. Sorry.

2009-06-12T22:07:00.001+08:00

Happy to see you, baby. :D See you tmr! LOVE!

2009-06-11T18:38:00.002+08:00

Last night, i text you, miss call you. Your phone was still on. I was expecting for your msg. But i didnt receive any. I woke up, my phone no msg. Was so sad. And the first msg you text me was asking for the receipt. Haha. Even more sad. And i asked you abt it. You asked me why like that. Asking, caring, curious. Cant? Many ppl asked me whether you're lie to me, cheat me anot. I said no. I really trust you and hope that you wont lie to me. So, i asked. Thats all. Bye.

2009-06-10T22:02:00.001+08:00

2009-06-10T02:17:00.001+08:00

Glad that everything's fine now. :)

161208♥

Fk every single thing.

Baby come back to me.

Still the same.

Sigh.

Love you as much still.

一天了。 我还可以tahan下去吗？

I need you.

Sigh

我是一条没有用的狗。

Getting worse.

SIgh

I am not in the right state.

Nightmares.

Need time.

Night time = night mare.

No dinner today.

:)

I hope i'm doing fine.

Cant do without you.

Useless me.

Happy yet sad.

Attention!!!

Hehe.

Pls pls pls.:(

Pls.

I'm fine, hopefully.

Get well soon.

Bad day.

:)

More things are happening.

:(

Now you feel it?

You don't know.

Someone decide for me pls.

I know.

Disgusting.

You've changed

If.

TODAY is thursday.

I love baby. (L)

.

I miss my dear boy.

I love baby. (L)

Love

Batteries...

Pls stop my cryings.

一天了。我还可以tahan下去吗？